My mum passed away two months ago and I don't know to genuinely live on. She was diagnosed with stage 3 gallbladder cancer but when we got a second opinion in her home country they said it was liver cancer. She was only diagnosed last summer July. It came by so suddenly. From learning algebra and maths I  had to know about all this medical jargon when taking care of her :((. I'm only 19 I genuinely don't know how to live on like this. I'm just so sad everyday, there's nothing that could make be feel better except having her back. I just feel like this could have been so preventable, if only we went to our home country quicker and get treatment there faster. I feel so unsafe now and just trying to survive with what I have.