Hi all,

Not really sure what to expect from here but I feel I need to tell everyone how amazing my mum was. She was diagnosed with stage 3c ovarian/fallopian tube cancer in November 2020, she has 6 rounds of chemo, major surgery and recovered well. A year went by and all was well then the cancer started to creep back and spread. She underwent more chemotherapy another 6 rounds and had a good response. After regular bloods and scans they noticed the cancer was grumbling but mum has no symptoms so the team decided to hold off for the time being, she was enjoying life. She re started 3rd line chemo in March this year, she had 3 rounds then started having complications of the advanced cancer, a blocked bowel in April which needed hospital admission. They said it would probably happen again within the near future and June came and she wasn't eating well. admitted into hospital with another bowel blockage from the cancer but this time the team said she wouldn't recover. She was nill by mouth upon admission into hospital and was told she wouldn't be able to eat again due to the blockage. We were told to prepare for end of life care. She was in hospital for 11 days, no food, just a sponge to keep her mouth moist. She went into a care home on Wed 3rd July and died on the 10th. She basically had to starve to death/die of malnutrition due to the bowel blockage. I visited every day and watcher her deteriorate, she never left the bed. The last thing I told her was I love you mum and she was only just about able to say it back and she died that night. We had the funeral this week and I visited her grave thinking how on earth can this be real. Ive tried to phone her, I can't sleep I cant concentrate and I just cant bear the thought of my life without her. She is my rock, best friend. She battled for 5 years strong, courageous and never ever complained once. I miss her every second of every day and the thought of never seeing her again just makes me feel ill.