Hi everyone
I feel like I'm going mad some days. My lovely mum passed away from lung cancer in August last year. Although I'm married with a home of my own, I partially moved in with my mum and dad for the last 3 months to help out and because I wanted to be with mum for as much time as I could.
On the Tuesday night before she passed on the Friday, I was laying on the bed with her and she said, if I don't see you in the morning, you know I love you don't you?
I did see her in the morning but it was like someone had flipped a switch. Mum was crying, distressed, agitated. It went on like this for 48 hours, like this until she died on the Friday morning.
I keep replaying the images in my mind, and the noises mum was making. Wailing, and distressed until the Macmillan nurses arrived to give her something. We would have a couple of hours of calm then it would all start again.
I wake up in the night and I've been chewing my cheek and clenching my fists so tight I have to force my hands open.
I feel like I'll never move past what happened and think about my lovely mum as she was.
Is anyone able to tell me that this stops at some point?
Thank you so much
