I lost my dad in February this year after been diagnosed last December with bone and lung cancer. I am just struggling so much nothing seems or feels right. I have 2 amazing children who I get up for everyday and smile but I'm tired of getting up and faking my smile everyday. I am married but my partner doesn't care he is very much about himself and I dont feel connected to him this started before my dads death. I guess I am lonely which is making the grieving harder as I feel I have no one to talk to.