Hello Chris_83, 

I am so sorry for your loss - watching your dad suffer in those final 24 hours must have been really hard and sadly those final moments are images that can stay with you forever. I can't believe all this happened in such a short space of time, that he was diagnosed only in March. It must be a real shock for you and all his loved ones. Unfortunately, there is no easy way of dealing with grief as grief is such a personal thing involving a range of often overwhelming feelings but as you will read on our page on coping with grief, the two things that can help the most are time and support and I hope that you have some good support around you to help you get through the coming days. 

It sounds like you were really close to your dad and losing your dad who was at the same time your best friend is bound to leave you feeling angry and anger is just one of the many emotions you might feel as you are grieving the loss of a wonderful man who meant so much to you. It must be so difficult to think about all those things you won't be able to do together. Keep strong though Chris_83 and I wanted you to know that you are not alone, that many members of our community have sadly lost a parent or a loved one and will know exactly what you are going through and how you are feeling at the moment. Sometimes it is easier to talk to others here on the forum that you may not know personally than to friends or relatives because they will understand how much it hurts for you at the moment. 

I will let our members who've suffered a similar loss before come and say hello and share their story and give you some comforting words.  

We're thinking of you and your family during this difficult time. 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

Thank you Lucie, means a lot. 

Thank you Lucie, means a lot.