Hello Chris.  I am very sorry for your loss.  I lost both my parents many years ago.  For a long time I felt lost......it was like the ground had moved from beneath me.  What I can tell you is that eventually you will reach a place of sad acceptance about your dad.  I still miss my mum and dad, but it is no longer a raw pain.  I don't think that we ever truly 'get over' losing the people we love........somehow we just get through it.  You have every right to feel angry.  At 66 your dad was too young to die and it sounds like he was a very young and active 66.  Grief is a process and sadly, there are no short-cuts through it.  I could tell you all of the cliches, such as "you will always have your lovely memories".......but that doesn't stop the pain does it?  You were right to reach out to this Forum because so many of us here have lost loved ones to this monstrous disease, and we know how you feel, and very often, just the knowledge that there are others who have walked in our shoes makes us feel not quite so alone.  Once again Chris, so sorry for your loss.    

Thank you so much for your reply, means a lot. The first week was awful having to face people and talking about it, it’s now a little easier but dreading the funeral as it’s going to seem so final.

I’m pleased we were able to spend some quality time with him over the course of a number of months but it’s just a little consolation as we feel robbed, the same as everyone else that has lived through this horrible disease.

I feel sick when I think about going to places / do things that meant so much to us. I know he’d want us to carry on but it’s so damn hard. In time I’m sure things will become easier.

Thanks again for taking the time to reach out and sorry to hear about both your parents all those years ago. 

Take care

Chris 

Thank you so much for your reply, means a lot. The first week was awful having to face people and talking about it, it’s now a little easier but dreading the funeral as it’s going to seem so final.

I’m pleased we were able to spend some quality time with him over the course of a number of months but it’s just a little consolation as we feel robbed, the same as everyone else that has lived through this horrible disease.

I feel sick when I think about going to places / do things that meant so much to us. I know he’d want us to carry on but it’s so damn hard. In time I’m sure things will become easier.

Thanks again for taking the time to reach out and sorry to hear about both your parents all those years ago. 

Take care

Chris 

You're welcome Chris.