Hi Sherrell, 

I’m so sorry for your loss, I’m going through the same right now. I was with my dad as he passed in hospital almost two weeks ago. There’s so many emotions I’m feeling right now and feel a bit lost along with being angry and guilty us being here without him. 

I don’t have any answers for you regards to when things ease as it’s still quite raw but wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss.

Take care

Chris 

Hi Chris,

It's an absolute nightmare. Losing a parent is worst than anyone could imagine. It's not just about the fact he's gone, it's a link to your childhood and also I am who I am because of him. Just hope things someday become more normal again.

I think being with them at the end is so important, I wouldn't change it, but it also leaves you with images etched in your mind. Hope one day they fade and I only remember the other Dad.

I'm so sorry that you are living with this aswell. This group is a good way to put your feelings somewhere, especially when overthinking everything.

Sending you lots of love and strength 

Sherrell x

Thankyou for your kind words. I just want to feel normal again, not an emotional wreck. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only person that has ever lost a parent and noone could possibly understand how awful I feel.

I take comfort from you saying you have good days. Hopefully your bad days will lessen.

Take care, sending you love

Sherrell x

Hi Sherrell,

So true about losing that connection to your past, with time we’ll remember those as happy memories but right now the empty feeling is overwhelming.

I have found speaking about my dad over the last week or so easier to do without breaking down in tears every time. It’s also helped writing down my memories in readiness for his funeral.

Although it hurts I do keep telling myself he’s no longer in pain as he wouldn’t have wanted to live like he has been the last few months. 

I feel for my grandparents at the age of 90 who have now lost 2 sons with only their youngest left. Life just isn’t fair…

Take care 

Chris