I've only just joined the group, and wish I wasn't in this position. However, reading so many sad stories here I appreciate I'm not alone.

I lost my lovely husband to bowel cancer in March this year which was devastating enough, however I can't get past the feeling that he was let down by the NHS and Macmillan nurses. I'm so upset and angry that I've removed Macmillan from my will as I don't believe he received the care and support he deserved. I'm convinced if he hadn't have had his last session of chemo he would still be here today. 

I truly believe the chemo killed him. He was relatively fit and healthy for his 74 years before his diagnosis. He had every side effect going including two hospital admissions with sepsis. I can't prove negligence and I'd be fighting a losing battle anyway, but I'd really like someone to explain why we were constantly fobbed off and given false hope when they knew what was going on and that he didn't stand a chance of survival. No one seemed to care.  How do I stop feeling this way, it's eating me up.

Thank you for listening