Hello there. I lost my beautiful husband 3 weeks ago after a long 20month battle with lung cancer.

He had 4 sessions of chemotherapy followed by immune therapy which unfortunately did not suit him. In fact it caused inflammation and multiple blood clots on his lungs so they had to stop the treatment. After 8 months on a high dose of steroids to get rid of the inflammation he started another chemotherapy treatment. The oncologist was delighted that after 2 sessions his tumour had shrunk by 50% and was very happy for him to continue the last 2 sessions. After the last session of chemotherapy he had a scan which showed it had done a u turn and travelled into his legs and spine. We were devastated how can this happen after such good results. He couldn’t come to terms with it nor could I.  He was told he had but 2 weeks left to live and to put his house in order. I brought him home to care for him and the McMillan nurses arranged a hospital bed and wheelchairs for him, but his illness proceeded rapidly. He literally died in my arms and I felt his heart stop. This image is stuck in my head and I am struggling to deal with this grief, I will never get over the loss of him 46 years married to a wonderful man. He fought his battle so hard and accepted every treatment offered and this was so so cruel. My son is also looking for answers as to why this could happen and he also is struggling. We buried him last Tuesday and gave him the best send off ever and donations from family and friends we raised over £1200 for lung cancer research. I know that he would be happy for this money to go into research into this terrible disease and I don’t want anyone else to have to go through this experience. I feel your pain as well but I cry when I want and I find myself talking to his photos all the time.

God Bless