Morning. Really sounds like a rollercoaster of emotions all happening in a short space of time and can imagine that you're still feeling really numb from it all. I think with cancer, you get over one hurdle and met with another and it can be really hard. 

I hope you have people around you that can support each other and be there for one and other. I'm really sorry for your loss and hope you're feeling a little better today about things. 

Hi Frances I no how you feel I lost my mum 26th march 2024 I'm heartbroken she was diagnosed with bladder cancer end of September beginning of October my mum was so calm throughout everything never had any treatment as she said she was an age where it was to late but I'm so lost without her my husband is good he's been a great help but I was like my mums bodyguard we done so much together  my mother had a lovely send off with friends and family .but it's like a big hole in my heart has gone I've been sorting through things but have to stop as it makes me sad but time goes by and it should get easier for us this chat is good on here so just chat away if you want people reply which is nice take care Frances all the best .