My mum passed away, I told her something quite upsetting couple yrs ago which i shouldn't have l should of kept to myself but it was drink and it all got out of hand. I know now that at the time I ha d an illness and I am now a recovering Alcholic clean. But the worst part about this is that other family members got involved and were very abusive to me and made up stories too about my dead father who I loved with all my heart just as much as I loved my mother. I found out 3 months ago from a txt that she had terminal cancer when I was on a course at work then blocked I was in shock upset crying everything.i sent her a bouquet of flowers and wrote a letter I also must inform youse that durin the 2yr break i aslo sent flowers cards for birthdays but the damage was done .I believe everything could of been sorted if we were just alone. I just really don't know what to feel anymore I'm lost scared sad I don't know if I want go to funeral as I really don't want to see the other members of family of what damage they did to mines mums relationship is it bad not to attend but go myself to my respects to mum I really don't want any animosity or drama I just want her layed to rest with dad.sad hurting grief lonely worthlessness alone scared.
