hi, im new to this group,
i lost my mum last night to lung cancer, she had radiation back in march, and then started to feel pain in her stomach and back, recently she went to a&e and then was then taken to a hospice, where they looked after her amazingly, i thought she would come home but then she declined all of a sudden, stop drinking ans was put on a drive, before i knew it, we were there to say goodbye,
now i miss her like crazy and have no words for how i feel, but i feel empty and feel like i will never lose this pain, one minute i think i can handle this, the next im in a full on breakdown and anger. mode, im so scared of facing a funeral, im just really frightened, ive never gone through this before, does it ever get better?
will i always feel this empty?
x
