Hi I am so sorry for your loss, we lost our precious Mum a week today with complications from cancer. Like you we thought she was going to come home but it wasn’t to be. I am so devastated sometimes I don’t know how I am carrying on with all the day to day things. I may think about talking to a counsellor at some point, perhaps this is something you could think about. They do say that time helps, I do hope so as it is so bad watching my Dad and brother go through this too. My parents had discussed not having funerals and that is what we are going to do - the funeral director is dealing with it and we are going to have a ceremony with the ashes when we are feeling stronger. I have found coming on here and also the Cruse website and seeing what other people are going through makes me feel we are not alone. I wish you well.

Losing a parent or a child is probably the worst pain you  will ever have to face ,most people have been there and I can guarantee they have all felt the same pain as you are feeling ,all I can really say is it will take a while and there is no time limit so don't try to rush through your grief ,my grief lasted over a year for me to feel better but everyones different ,Its good you found this site its good to chat whenever you feel like it there's always someone here for you ,I hope it goes as well and as easy as possible for all your family .