On the 25th of December 2022 my mum unfortunately passed away at 44 after a long battle with cancer. My mum fought as hard as she could from day one but sadly we are now without her. She was diagnosed 31st of July 2020 with cervical cancer. There was a glimmer of hope when mum was finally able to go forward with the long-awaited immunotherapy treatment we had hoped for so long as no other treatments were working. This was a trial treatment and she had been told for months that it kept getting pushed back and we didn't know if she would even be accepted for it at all. If she did, it wouldn't cure her but she could have another 2 years with us all. She wanted this so bad. And on the 23rd of December 2022, she finally got to have the treatment.Unfortunately the following day, her condition became worse and despite her battling we lost her Christmas morning…
The world feels so empty and dark right now. It's hard to understand why this had to happen and I just feel so lost without my mum she was my best friend my everything. I’m 23 and feel like nothing will ever be good anymore. Everything makes me think of my mum and how she’s not here anymore. I dread the day I’ll get exciting milestones like a proposal, wedding, kids and anything around those lines as she won’t be by my side to see.
Does it get better?
To make things worse I don’t feel like I have grieved the loss of my mum. Yes I get upset every now and then but it just doesn’t feel real. Like I think I’m just gonna wake up and give my mum a call and tell her about this crazy nightmare. I don’t feel like I can talk to anybody anymore…
