I’m so sorry for your huge loss. I don’t have any additional words of advice outside of what moderator Jenn has said, the bereavement counselling can be very helpful. Take care. 

I am so sorry for your loss.  I lost my husband of 55 years to a very rare cancer.   He appeared to be fine and then started to complain of a bad back.  We thought he had pulled a muscle, however 4 weeks later he left.    We had been together since being 16.  He was my everything.  It will be the 3rd anniversary in September and I can say that a day does not go by that I wish he was with me as I miss him so much.  I started a book, writing down things I wanted to tell him and how I miss him and this did help me in the early days but there is nothing more devastating than losing someone who is your whole world.  I hope you can find peace xx

I am so sorry for your loss.  I lost my husband of 55 years to a very rare cancer.   He appeared to be fine and then started to complain of a bad back.  We thought he had pulled a muscle, however 4 weeks later he left.    We had been together since being 16.  He was my everything.  It will be the 3rd anniversary in September and I can say that a day does not go by that I wish he was with me as I miss him so much.  I started a book, writing down things I wanted to tell him and how I miss him and this did help me in the early days but there is nothing more devastating than losing someone who is your whole world.  I hope you can find peace xx