It’s my dads funeral today

My dad passed away from cancer a month ago today and none of it feels real at all. We found out he had stage 4 kidney cancer only in January. I live with my parents so I experienced everything from beginning to end. I've felt extremely numb and calm since he died which isn't like me at all, but this morning I'm feeling a bit scared about reality setting in because of the funeral. I know it's a celebration of his life and we will do him proud and memorialise all that was so amazing about him. But I'm terrified of my grief really coming to the surface because today I can't keep it locked away. I'm scared and I miss him so so much :( 

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  • Hello helen94, 

    I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad. I'm in my 20s and my Dad passed away six weeks ago. He was my best friend and I miss him terribly. This first while has been such an odd time; sometimes I feel ok and then a few minutes later it hits me all over again. I'm focusing on the fact that I know my Dad would really hate to see me staying inside upset; I really think it would upset him. So I've started back work  and am trying to take each day as it comes and just accept that life is very sad at the moment. I know if your Dad was anything like mine he would hate to see you so upset. 

    I found my Dad's funeral very tough but I took comfort from all the people who came to pay their respects. And I take comfort from the fact I read his eulogy and got to let people know just what a beloved and adored Dad he was. I know you will never regret having gone to your Dad's funeral and I know he would be so proud of you for having been there. 

    I hope you're minding yourself and not putting yourself under any pressure at the moment. I know the pain you are feeling with the loss of your Dad. But we must keep our chins up. I try and focus on the fact that I had a brilliant Dad whom I adored and who I know adored me...so many people don't get that. Sending you all my best wishes xx

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  • Hello helen94, 

    I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad. I'm in my 20s and my Dad passed away six weeks ago. He was my best friend and I miss him terribly. This first while has been such an odd time; sometimes I feel ok and then a few minutes later it hits me all over again. I'm focusing on the fact that I know my Dad would really hate to see me staying inside upset; I really think it would upset him. So I've started back work  and am trying to take each day as it comes and just accept that life is very sad at the moment. I know if your Dad was anything like mine he would hate to see you so upset. 

    I found my Dad's funeral very tough but I took comfort from all the people who came to pay their respects. And I take comfort from the fact I read his eulogy and got to let people know just what a beloved and adored Dad he was. I know you will never regret having gone to your Dad's funeral and I know he would be so proud of you for having been there. 

    I hope you're minding yourself and not putting yourself under any pressure at the moment. I know the pain you are feeling with the loss of your Dad. But we must keep our chins up. I try and focus on the fact that I had a brilliant Dad whom I adored and who I know adored me...so many people don't get that. Sending you all my best wishes xx

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