My Mam sadly passed away 26th feb 2023 after a 17 month battle with non Hodgkin's lymphoma. She went through five rounds of treatment and massive surgery in between it all. She was so fit before her diagnosis and loved nature and life.

we done everything together she was my best friend we lived together went on holidays together. She was so much more than my Mam she was like my twin. I am 31 she was 61 I am so broken without her. I would always go to her for advise and everything would seem ok afterwards now I've nothing.

I am so sad for her because she was so possitive throughout it all because she thought she would be ok.
I don't know how to really function, or how I will get the strength to return to work. I do secretly cry to myself and the rest of the time I try and hold it in, I feel like any small trigger will just set me off into tears  I have anxiety about going back to work now because I don't know if I will even be able to talk to people without completing breaking down, it's a struggle to try and look composed.

I am so scared that the real grief hasn't even fully hit me even though I am so sad and cry daily I still feel it's going to hit me with a bang