Hi Maisy140210,

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss and I wanted to send our condolences. No doubt you are going through an incredibly tough time at the moment.

Be kind to yourself - certainly don't feel guilty. There is no right or wrong way to deal with this - there isn't really a 'normal' and everyone experiences grief differently and deals with it in different ways. You may find that your emotion comes and goes, and in different forms. It sounds like you did a lot for your mum and no doubt she would be proud.

If ever you feel like you're struggling and would like a bit of extra support, have a look at Cruse. They have a lot of helpful information on their site, as well as a helpline.

We are also always here for support on the forum if ever you need it. I can see you have posted elsewhere in reply to someone - hopefully you can find others to reach out to, as well as getting further replies here.

Look after yourself, and wishing you all the best,

Ben
Cancer Chat Moderator

Backing up what Ben says, don't feel guilty.

I lost my mum on 10th March, she was 54, this all come unexpectedly after finding out only a week before that she had cancer, it was all a whilrlwind and Couldn't imagine life without her, my best friend in life. But now we have no choice which is the cruellest part of life. I miss her more than words could ever describe, the hole in my life is huge. 

I cried everyday from finding out until 2 days after she passed and then this last week I've been ok (apart from looking at photos where I always shed a tear) and like you I felt a bit guilty that I wasn't crying more for her. However I look at it this way, I'm hurting inside and no amount of crying will help, our mums would want us to continue with our lives the best we can, life is too short and we need to continue to live our lives, in their memory and practice what our wonderful mums taught us over the years.

Theyll be watching down on us and spurring us on. 
 

All the best and take care. 

I completely agree, I lost my mum 3 days ago after her being diagnosed 6 weeks ago, she was so poorly since we found out. I cried all the way through her illness but today haven't cried, Im not sure it feels real yet so I think I'm still in denial , everyone is different, im Ok and then stupid things set me off like thinking about her clothes hung on the bedroom door and small things like that.