I miss my mam so bad, she passed away 5 months ago and all I want is to be able to ask her one more question or have one more hug, she fought so hard for years and I had anticipatory grief but I can't help but almost be in disbelief that's she's actually gone. We were best friends and she was such a big part of my life things just don't seem as enjoyable as they were when she was here. I dread to think of times such as getting married and having a baby, I'm 20 now and the thought of having my birthday without her there makes me feel sick, I just feel like I have been robbed of her. My brothers and father seem to carry on as though things are normal and seem worried when I express sadness that she's gone, it makes it hard.
