I lost my husband at the end of October last year and I feel I've lost my self too
I am Numb but in pain and lost.
He had terminal colorectal cancer but he wasn't in pain for the most part so they say that was a blessing, nothing about Cancer is a blessing.
I looked after him at home where he wanted to be and that's where he passed away.
I can not process the fact he's gone after nearly 39 years of marriage, I can't find him I need him to come home I don't understand why my soul mate had to go.
We were the perfect pair, i am a typical Gemini two sides to one person he was a libra and he was my balance
I know I'm not the only person to have been robbed of a loved one to that stain on existence called Cancer but I felt if I put it in words it may be a way of trying to make sense of it all
Reading this back now it still doesn't help.
Some people are angry with their loved one for leaving them, I'm mad at the thing that took him away from me.
Well the tears are falling more than ever so thank you if you read this.
Someone said that sharing your feelings with others can help, I don't know.
