It's OK to feel all emotions, it's a coping mechanism, don't allow anyone to make you feel you need to bottle it up, take a walk in the country or park to help clear your mind and talk to your mum as I'm sure she is listening,  life feels empty but you need time to adjust , look after yourself and don't worry what others think x

Hi Lola,

A very warm welcome to our forum.

I am so sorry to hear about your Mum. This is such a difficult time for you and you have had a long wait for her funeral. I found that one thing that helped me after my Mum passed, was having a good photo of her in a prominent place. It may sound crazy, but this was somewhere I could talk to her, tell her how I wished that she was stilll here, how much I loved her, etc. That was 25 years ago and I still miss her sorely, although I'll always carry her in my heart. 

 I have tried to do as she always wished for me - to live my life and raise my family to make her proud. She would not have wanted me to be sad at her parting. People say that it gets easier with time, but we probably just learn how to manage our loss. There are no rules for grief. As Briarwood-girl has said, "it's ok to feel all emotions". Had your Mum been ill for a while before she passed?

I shall be thinking of you next week. Her funeral will be tough, but you have hidden stengths that I'm sure you will bring to the fore especially for her.

Thinking of you and I am always here if you want to talk.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx