Worst heartbreak ever

I lost my my mum in October and I'm really struggling to cope. I had no time to process anything. She went in hospital with a seizure in July, we got a stage 4 diagnosis in August and a prognosis of just a few weeks. She ended up in a hospice in September and passed away at the beginning of October. It was just one thing after another and now it's finally hit me that she's no longer here. 
I'll never see her again 

I'll never talk to her again 

She will never be around again 

I need her here. I wish so hard everyday that this didn't happen. I'm still in disbelief and I hate the pain that I feel constantly every day. I cry every night. I don't want to be around people. My life has come to a stand still. I'm not interested in anything anymore and I just want nothing more than to be with her. Other people are moving on with their lives and can't comprehend how I'm feeling. I just want my mum.

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  • Hugs to you I do understand. I am angry at the world also people don't understand how a close relationship can actually 'be' your whole world.  Other people I just look at with no feeling or connection at the moment, talking about pointless things, I can't relate.  I too am just existing at the moment, I go home and watch YouTube, barely speak to anyone out loud.  I want it to be this way, I'm not faking anything at the moment.  

  • Hugs to you too! I know what you mean, your brain capacity just goes down and its hard to focus on things or people that arent helping. It can be lonely and isolating to be greiving because no one really knows how you are feeling inside unless they have been through something similar themselves. 

    Im struggling as well with feeling festive at the moment. I usually love Christmas but really not feeling it this year. 

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  • Hugs to you too! I know what you mean, your brain capacity just goes down and its hard to focus on things or people that arent helping. It can be lonely and isolating to be greiving because no one really knows how you are feeling inside unless they have been through something similar themselves. 

    Im struggling as well with feeling festive at the moment. I usually love Christmas but really not feeling it this year. 

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