Worst heartbreak ever

I lost my my mum in October and I'm really struggling to cope. I had no time to process anything. She went in hospital with a seizure in July, we got a stage 4 diagnosis in August and a prognosis of just a few weeks. She ended up in a hospice in September and passed away at the beginning of October. It was just one thing after another and now it's finally hit me that she's no longer here. 
I'll never see her again 

I'll never talk to her again 

She will never be around again 

I need her here. I wish so hard everyday that this didn't happen. I'm still in disbelief and I hate the pain that I feel constantly every day. I cry every night. I don't want to be around people. My life has come to a stand still. I'm not interested in anything anymore and I just want nothing more than to be with her. Other people are moving on with their lives and can't comprehend how I'm feeling. I just want my mum.

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  • Hi there,

                   Let me start with sending you lots of love and strength. I too lost my Mum in October and feel exactly like you. I just can't comprehend it. My mum didn't have cancer she went to work and had a massive heart attack and didn't come home. I'm still living in a state of shock I think and the more days that pass the worse I feel knowing I'll never see her again and seeing my dad struggle on without her is a pain like no other. At least I have my 2 boys to keep my occupied but when I'm on my own that's when the tears start its awful. I really hope the saying is true that it gets easier because I can't see how. Lots of love sweetheart and RIP to your beautiful Mum x

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  • Hi there,

                   Let me start with sending you lots of love and strength. I too lost my Mum in October and feel exactly like you. I just can't comprehend it. My mum didn't have cancer she went to work and had a massive heart attack and didn't come home. I'm still living in a state of shock I think and the more days that pass the worse I feel knowing I'll never see her again and seeing my dad struggle on without her is a pain like no other. At least I have my 2 boys to keep my occupied but when I'm on my own that's when the tears start its awful. I really hope the saying is true that it gets easier because I can't see how. Lots of love sweetheart and RIP to your beautiful Mum x

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