Hi All,
I have been hesitant to post in this forum as I have struggled to articulate my feelings related to my loss. My mother passed away May of Last year. Although a while has passed I feel as though I have not really processed the loss at all.
She was diagnosed with a Spindle Cell Sarcoma in March of 2021 but the Cancer had Metastacised by the time it was diagnosed and therefore untreatable. Her mobility quickly deteriorated and as the only member of the family with care experience, I took on a great deal of her personal care.
I was in my first year of university when she got diagnosed and dropped out to help out at home. Since she passed I have felt overwhelmed with the tasks of helping my family through their grief and supporting my father through his loss.
I have found it hard to adjust to the return to university and 'normal life' as I feel I don't really relate to any of the people my age anymore and feel so much more responsibility at home in comparison to my friends. I have recently found myself dreaming of my mum and family a lot recently and wondered if this was normal.
Is it just a usual stage of grief that I am experiencing a bit late? Does anyone else not really know how to adjust back to normal life after experiencing a major change?
Im sorry for the long message.
Thank you, K
