I was supposed to be going on holiday today to Croatia with 2 friends, but I can't face going. My mam died 8 weeks ago tommorow and I'm feeling worse each day. I don't think my friends understand as they havnt lost anyone.
I'm so sorry for your loss - 8 weeks is still very recent. Take each day as it comes and eventually some days will be a bit better than others but never feel pressured into doing stuff you don't feel up to. People say 'she'd want you to be happy' but I think she'd want you to grieve first. My sister died from NHL 5 years ago and I still get odd moments when it's like a knife twisting inside me or something reminds me and chokes me up. You take your time, my love - you'll know when you feel ready to go on holiday
Its completely understandable to not feel like going on holiday after losing your Mum so recently, your friends will understand even if they are disappointed. Its true...until you have lost someone so important in your life you can't ever truly understand, we only really know when we have walked a similar path. I lost my Mum in May and I am also feeling worse each day because as time goes on I miss her more and more, I want and need to talk to her, hug her, see her, its just unbearable isn't it?
Whatever decision you made regarding your holiday, it was the right decision for how you are feeling now. There will be other chances to go away when you feel stronger. I cancelled a mini break last weekend because I just couldn't face going right now and I don't regret it as it was how I felt.
