hello, not sure what to say or do this is all new, my wife and the love of my life was diagnosed with cancer in 2016, it broke us both, but our glass's always half full, and we made the best of it, she fought so brave, she was and always will be a hero to me and our boy, sadly she lost her battle on 6th April 22. and the pain and loss i feel every waking moment is undescribable, I feel dead inside like some one has come and stoly my family, me and my boy are so close and try so hard to not fall apart in front of him, we have started counceling the pair of us, I dont know if it will help, i hope it will because my boy has his whole life ahead of him and dont want this to define the rest of his life, I read a book about a priest who's partner passed away and he summed it up so well, when your partner dies they take your future and identity with them, because i dont know how to be a widow i only know how to be one half of a fantastic mrriage that is no more. sorry for rambling on, just need to vent the million thoughts in my head at once, thank for listening if anyone has.