My mum passed away from bowel cancer on the 31st March 2021, so it's been just over a year. But the pain just doesn't seem to go away? It's just as intense as it's always been. I'm really really struggling. I can't put it into words, but I feel like there's something constantly missing. I miss her like crazy. 
 

I just keep thinking why did this happen to my mum. She was only 55. It's not fair. 
 

I don't know how to go on anymore. How am I genuinely meant to live the rest of my life without her? I don't see the point of anything. Life doesn't excite me anymore. 
 

No-one seems to understand what it feels like. Everyone expects me to have gotten over it. But if anything, I feel like I'm dying inside. I feel constant pain. I miss her SO MUCH. For months I tried to block the pain out. I avoided thinking about it. I binge ate. I was a complete mess.  I did eveetrhing to avoid it. 

but the reality is my mum is dead and there's nothing I can do. 
 

Please can someone help me. It hurts like crazy. No-one seems to understand. If anything, friends and family expect me to have gotten over it???? No-one is kind about it.

My mum was the only person in the world who loved me unconditionally, I feel like I have no-one anymore. I just don't see the point of anything