Cancer Research UK main site
  • Replies 2 replies
  • Views 325 views
  • Users 0 members are here

I'm Lost

BinzIsBroken
Offline

Hi guys,

I'll introduce myself as an broken personn, I'd like to fix myself but don't know how....... I've had so much happen to me these last few years and I'm struggling to cope I've turned to drink and drugs, hanging around with the wrong people and getting into trouble, I've worked alot with key workers to combat my issues but a recent event sent me off the rails again!! I was abstinent for 5 months so I know I can do it but 

I lost my dad suddenly on the 13rh march 2020, I was a single parent and he used to visit me every day, occupied and entertained my 2 year old son so I could get my housework done, he was wy rock.....I went to *** after he passed.....my son went into foster care so I crashed even more, then I was evicted from my home, my life after that was worthless, all I had was my mum....but I couldn't visit her because of COVID as she was ill and and diagnosed with lung cancer, they gave her 6 months but she suddenly got I'll and she passed away on the 20th December 2022......my head no longer has any room for emotions....I don't think about things anymore because it leads me to distraction......my head's gone west because so much has happened, I've got no one to turn to..... nobody understands... I'm helpless

Parents
  • Offline

    Hello mate,

    So sorry to hear what you have been through and what you are still going through.  It's no wonder you have gone off the rails......you have lost both of your parents in the space of 3 months and your little boy is in care.......it's enough to make anyone break........BUT, remember, you CAN come back from all of this.  Please focus on your son and let him be the beacon of light that gives you the strength to get yourself back on track.  It won't be easy, but your parents are in spirit doing their best to help you.  Get back in touch with your key workers and start the process of healing and re-claiming your son and your life.  Remember, your son needs you, and you need him.  There is a chinese proverb:  The journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step.  Take that first step, you can do it.  Good luck my dear.

Reply
  • Offline

    Hello mate,

    So sorry to hear what you have been through and what you are still going through.  It's no wonder you have gone off the rails......you have lost both of your parents in the space of 3 months and your little boy is in care.......it's enough to make anyone break........BUT, remember, you CAN come back from all of this.  Please focus on your son and let him be the beacon of light that gives you the strength to get yourself back on track.  It won't be easy, but your parents are in spirit doing their best to help you.  Get back in touch with your key workers and start the process of healing and re-claiming your son and your life.  Remember, your son needs you, and you need him.  There is a chinese proverb:  The journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step.  Take that first step, you can do it.  Good luck my dear.

Children
No Data

Speak to a nurse

Quick links

Follow us

Registered with Fundraising Regulator (logo)
Cancer Research UK is a registered charity in England and Wales (1089464), Scotland (SC041666), the Isle of Man (1103) and Jersey (247). A company limited by guarantee. Registered company in England and Wales (4325234) and the Isle of Man (5713F). Registered address: 2 Redman Place, London, E20 1JQ.