Yesterday I thought I was going round to help change my dad's bed sheets only to see my dad staring at the ceiling taking shallow breaths every 10 seconds I phoned emergency services and they was brilliant and arrived just as I got off the phone, my dad passed about 40 mins after but all I see is his face with his eyes and mouth open it was soo traumatic I just keep crying as the sight just keeps appearing. The whole thing from being told he was end of life and had 6 to 12 months to be gone within weeks as all been overwhelming. I'm sorry if I seem like I'm babbling but I just need to get this feeling down and out I can't close my eyes as its the first thing I see, and I just keep replaying it over in my head then the guilt of was there anything else I could have done.
