My beautiful caring mum passed away three weeks ago. My mum was my world I looked after her since her diagnosis end of aug. I looked after her 24/7 till she passed away last month. My mum didn't want to go into hospital or a hospice so I tried to give her everything she wanted she just wanted to be at home. I have helped my dad arrange things. Everyone else is falling apart and I don't know how to help. I haven't really cried when usually I'm the one that falls apart. I tried to be strong in front of my mum as she was my rock my world and best friend. Its like im in a nightmare looking in and im terrified that when it does hit me i won't cope. I honestly loved my mum more than life itself. I just wonder why im not a mess as I have been with previous loved ones passing