Can't stop being emotional

Hi, my partner mark needed an endescope to place a stent in a blocked bile duct unfortunately this gave him severe pancreatitis. 5 weeks down the line he has lost so much weight and can't really eat. The oain seems to be subsiding at last, To top it all the blockage is cancer and can't be treated until the pancreatitis has settled and he gets stronger. He was in hospital for 4 weeks but wanted home which his consultant agreed to. It's not easy as i can't have anyone to help because of covid and I feel so guilty crying all the time but the stress and worry is awful also the crippling loneliness espically at night time. It is breaking my heart to watch the pain and suffering of the man I love and I feel we have been cut adrift. I do feel like i am grieving.

 

  • My heart goes out to you. My husband has a different cancer, but I've found that sometimes it is not the treatment that is the problem, but the side effects of treatment, and the waiting for the next bit of news/treatment. Live life as 'short term' as you can. Each day you only have to find a way through that one day. Do make sure the consultant hearing updates from you on his condition, even if you haven't any appointments booked - because it might change the plan. Hope things start to look better soon.

  • Thank you so much for your reply, it really helps to know that we are not alone in this experience. You are so right though in trying to face one day at a time and hold on tight to any small improvement or just having a better day.