Hi i feel like we are different people it seems like even at Xmas which was only a few weeks ago we were 2 completely different people this has changed everything we planned for our future I feel like I can't cope I need so strength to look after husband feel like we will never be that couple anymore the couple that laughed all the time enjoyed our grandson I'm so scared for the future nothing seems important now only looking after my husband I wake up in the morning for a split second I feel like everything is normal then it hits me. I don't sleep much I just sit watching him sleep