Hi,
my partner won't do anything for himself.
he has colorectal cancer, is mid way through radiation and chemo and he's running me ragged.its not a terminal diagnosis and had we not had to self isolate I know for a fact he'd still be working full time.I feel bad for even thinking this let alone writing it down but I'm getting sick of him. There's no affection really, when there is it feels forced so yeah I feel like a house maid. Only I don't get paid and since he's the only one getting a wage through this virus I also have to ask him for money to buy food. I have tell him about every penny
i feel trapped, lonely and have increasing feelings of anger not towards him per se but definitely at the situation. There's no counselling to get because of corona and honestly if I didn't think it would kill him I'd go out and get it on purpose just to get away.
im so lonley. And I'm sick of it all. I feel like he's so lazy and completely ignorant to what I do. He's a child. It drives me round the bend. I'm starting to hate myself for how I feel about him.