I am trying so hard to be strong for him. Tonight he said he thinks he’s “had it” I asked him why and he said everything seems to be gearing up for the end. He felt that the Marie Curie nurse visit last week meant he would go soon. I said I kind of understood his fear but she is there to support him. I suggested he talks to her about this next week when she visits again.
I sat on the edge of his bed and talked about the holiday we’ve booked for March. He said it’s only 26 days away, so at least it’s given him something to aim for. He’s counting the days He’s anxious about travelling. There is a hospital with an Oncology unit about 8 miles from where we will be staying. I think it’s best if I call them before we go to check they’ll be able to help him if he got taken ill
Hes got his sickness under control and that’s helped him a little. He’s not eating much but he has an appointment with the dietician next week.
My heads still in a whirl, I’m not sleeping properly I don’t really know what to do or say I’m simply being guided by him. I accept what he says and reassure him as best I can.
Im going to try to be brave and ask the nurse some questions next week
This is the worst thing to happen to us all but we are trying to make the best of now
Kuiper
