I'm only a young teenager but it's  4 in the morning and all I can do is think about her, my nanny is the only thing in my head right now and I can't stop crying I hate seeing how much she suffers and I know that she tries to act like she's okay infront of me but I can still see her suffering and I hate it. I just want her to be okay I don't want her to be in pain anymore but I can't lose her I just can't it would break my heart so so so much for her to pass I can't let go of her I don't want her to go I want her to be okay, I just want her to be okay

sorry for ranting I just had to let it all out