Sister diagnosed as terminal

Hi 

So not really sure where to post but my sister was diagnosed with terminal cancer a year ago. She's only young and has a young family and we are very close. I have my husband and two small children but she's my go to person and I'm always speaking to her/texting her/being reminded of her. We have lots of in jokes and experiences.

I don't really know what I'm expecting from this forum but lately I feel really down like I'm going to burst into tears about her and her *** situation.

I then feel guilty as she's so strong and feel like I shouldn't feel upset as she's the one who's ill and having to cope with this all. I just can't imagine life without her. All I can think is what the hell am I going to do if she goes (which then makes me feel mega selfish)

  • Hi there - it's an awfully sad situation & hardly surprising you want to cry all the time. I can't think of anyone who wouldn't feel as you do & it's certainly not selfish & you mustn't feel guilty about it. I think part of what you are experiencing is called anticipatory grief & it's very common for family members of those with a terminal diagnosis to go through. It's as tho' a part of you feels you have already lost her which in a way you have. You must just allow yourself to feel how you feel & of course spend as much time with her as you can. Tell her how much you love her & how much you will miss her - it will help you later. Let her talk about how she feels if she wants to - don't be afraid to talk & to listen. 

    I hope this helps you at least a little bit. Carry on posting if you'd like to - people here understand what you're going thro' & will help & support you when they can. Take good care of yourself too. x

  • Hello,

    I'm very sorry to hear about your situation.  To echo purrfect,  I think it's so normal to feel like this.  Please do not feel guilty. Someone you love is very poorly.  If your friend was in your situation, what would you say to them? Remember to show yourself the kindness you would show to a friend. 

    Keep posting here, there's lots of support.  Take care.

    T