When I tell other people about my daughters incurable cancer diagnoses even neighbours well up and cry , then me as her mum I don’t seem to be able to cry about it I don’t no what I feel , it’s only when something minor in the house like a light bulb popping in the house and I can’t find one to replace it which makes me start crying stressing out over the top emotions that aren’t really about the light bulb that I realise I have got pent up emotions about my daughter, but it frustrates me that I can’t seem to connect with them on a normal basis , it makes me feel like am I a cold person it’s like sometimes I think to myself there’s no way one day my daughters heart can just stop