Hi Dave...

Loosing our mum is one of the hardest things we have to go through in life ... second only to loosing a child ...  

That wonderful relationship you have with her, will never go .. she'll stay tucked up in your heart and you'll take her with you where ever you go ... she'll be right there ..

I lost my mum suddenly from a heart attack and had no chance to even say those things like I was so proud to be her daughter.... I chatted to her one Monday morning.... at 5.20 we lost her ... what I'd give for just one hour ... I was 36 .. and she was my pillow when I cryed .. and the clown that made me smile .. and the perfect nanny ...

So I remember well that feeling ..of loosing the best friend we ever get .. our mum ...

But try not to think of her not here ... hold on to every hour you get .. hold her hand and tell her what's in your heart ... they say hearing is the last thing to go... so keep talking ... you have the chance I never had.. 

I've felt my mum around me .. at times when things weren't good .. and you only see signs when you don't look for them ... when I was diagnosed with breast cancer... I found feathers everywhere... esp in my bra .. every day .. and the day I was told it was contained and low risk of spread they stopped ...

So just remember you are half of her ... she will live through you .. l adore my son .. and once going down to theatre for an emergency op, where I was sure I wouldn't come out of .. my son held my hand till he had to leave the operating room ... l was content knowing his would be the last face I saw ... 

We never leave our sons .. wer bound by an invisible cord , they thought was cut at your births .. but that invisible cord that connects us is always there .. just picture her right behind you cancer free .. and you know I still chat to my mum up there .. and the answer pops in my head ... believe ...

Sending you a vertual hug... Chrissie xx