Hi, my beautiful mum was diagnosed with incurable lung cancer at start of 2018.  She has had 6 rounds of chemotherapy and radiotherapy.  It shrunk a little but cancer didnt spread anywhere else.  6th Dec 2018 she had a routine scan, her oncologist seen her and offered her more treatment.  She gave her over xmas to see what her decision would be.  When she seen oncologist at start of January my mum wasnt doing too great.  She had lost a lot of weight, wasnt eating and kept being sick. She was also quite unsteady on her feet.  They decided she would be best to have another scan to see if cancer was now on her brain or anywhere else.  Wednesday 6th Feb she was taken into hospital, she was really sick and couldnt swallow.  Consultant on admissions ward told us the devastating news that the cancer had progressed really fast and was now all over her chest and lymph nodes (not on her brain).  He said she now needs to speak to her family about end of life care and what her wishes are.  She is currently in a respiratory ward.  They say a lymph node is pressing on her oesophagus which is making her sick all the time.  They are trying steroids to see if it will shrink it a little to give her relief.

I am truly heartbroken.  Everything is happening so fast, we have spoken to the palliative care team and now waiting on OH coming to see her to get things sorted to bring my mum home.  I cannot stop crying, my poor mum.  I am trying to take day by day but all I can think of is how bad it will be at the end.  I cry myself to sleep, wake up crying and am truly devastated, my mum is 64.

My mum was supposed to get home today. Her bed was all set up and care plan already. My beautiful mum took her last breath at 6am this morning. She was on her own in hospital, she passed in her sleep. Its my sisters birthday. We are all heart broken, sad, devastated, i dont know i just dont know how to explain how i feel. Her only wish was to go home and see her dogs. It was so unexpected, no one thought it would happen today. We visited everyday, yesterday she was struggling to get her words out and was a bit confused. She was still drinking a lot and wasnt in any pain. Her breathing was a bit fast and she was tired. I wish I had stayed longer. I gave her a kiss and cuddle and told her i loved her. I didnt know it would be the last time. We all went in to spend some time with her when she passed. She was a very well loved wife, mum, gran, great gran, sister and aunt. I really do not know how I am going to get through this xx