Keep going keep strong things will get better for your.don't give up know one would want that for you .keep talking to people even on this forum helps 'I know it helps me . Keep in touch

Hi there ...

You've just given everything... and got nothing else to give ... but don't give up ... I'm sure if you can stand back, and do some things for you, it just may help .. 

You need to find balance ... of what you have to do, and the time you need for you ... if you brake I'm sure your dad and brother, would be left devastated ... but to help them, you now have to put you first ...

Reach out to McMillan free phone .. where you can talk to someone who will understand just how you feel ... they help people caring for cancer patients too .. or the nurses on here have a free phone too .. but both are here Mon to Fri .. if you feel like it's overwhelming at the week end .. phone the Samaritans. . They will listen .. and maybe someone can offer some practical help to give you space to be you again .

You know 5 years or even less down the line, you will have lots of time to find you again.. to live with only your feelings .. l had my own black hole that I wanted to jump into years ago .. it just felt like.. I wanted the pain to stop .. but I held on for dear life, and so glad I did ... I wouldn't have met my grandkids ... I have got so much love around me now... I love every day I have now ... even after my own breast cancer ..  l know that feeling of everything crashing in on you ... but it starts with reaching out .. you've just taken the first step on here .. bend but don't brake ...

I'm here most days, l can't take it away... but I can listen ...  sending you a big hug .. Chrissie x

Hello mysteryboy,

A big welcome to our forum where I am sure you will find support from others who have also cared for loved ones with cancer and who understand exactly how you are feeling at the moment.

You are doing an incredible job looking after both your dad and your brother and you certainly have an enormous weight on your shoulders which can feel like too much to carry for such a young person. But as [@Clee]‍  and [@Chriss]‍ said, stay strong and don't give up you have your life ahead of you and even though it may feel a bit much at the moment, I am sure things will brighten up. You are obviously a very caring person and I am sure the future will have great things in store for you. Take heart from [@Chriss]‍ 's story, the story of her grandchildren who now give her so much joy.

Just to follow up on what Chrissie so rightly suggested, if you need to talk to anyone at any time of day or night, get in touch with Samaritans. I think you are based in the USA so you can find out their contact details here. Give them a call when you feel like offloading a bit.

And we are of course always here too if you need to get things off your chest.

Best wishes,

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator