My hubby has kidney cancer spread to his lungs. You have my live and sympathy as I too am all over the place since diagnosis in January. Our timeline is a few years which I should be grateful for - and I am but I feel so fragile and vulnerable or I just lash out at bad drivers etc. Anyone can upset me with an unkind look or word and I'm scared of the future. I feel like I'm thrashing about and the ground beneath me is unsteady. Nothing, nothing prepares you for this. We are in this awful club together though. You're not alone Zaffertime and Yoc.