hiya nicky i hope this finds you well. its good that i'm not the only one feeling like this.

my brother has gone though chemo/radiotherpy. which both had worked for a while.

yes its a terrible going through this feeling so alone and nobody gets where im coming from. thinking of you as well

im here if you need to talk anytime . ive sent you a  friends request i hope you dont mind

looking forward to speaking with you soon

So sorry to hear about your brother. And so young too, so awful and sad. You keep making those memories with your brother, treasure each and every one of them. Take pictures, so you can look back and treasure those memories. The feeling of 'why him?' Is totally normal. And it is true...why him? When there are so many people out there who are horrible walking the streets. I guess we will never really know. I often feel the sake way. My dad has stage 4 incurable bowel cancer which has spread to his lungs and liver, he was diagnosed 2 years in April. I'm 27, I find it a struggle having someone to talk to as friends don't really understand. They try to sympathise but after a few minutes they've forgotten and moved on, where as we never do x 

I've sent you a friends request I hope you don't mind 

so we can have a talk on there 

x