My father was diagnosed with prostate cancer 5 years ago and had surgery. The past few years we thought things were going well, he had regular check ups and there was no concerns. Flash forward to this fall after tests and scans - cancer has been found and earlier this week we found out my Dad is in stage 4. The cancers not curable and we're looking at different treatments.

I'm finding it really difficult to be strong for both my parents. I have a brother, however he lives away with his family. So I'm the main support for my parents. I'm trying very hard to be strong but it's difficult to see my Dad in such pain, both physical and mental. Seeing him worry about what's going to happen, worrying about the future.  Probably his biggest worry is not seeing his grandchildren. My Mom is a very strong woman who doesn't often allow others to see her emotions or vulnerability.  Her outlook is that we do what we can, for the time being. A good attitude, but I can't help think about how she may really be feeling (exhausted from the continual support she provides, her own worries about everything she may be keeping to herself, she's also had a brother pass away recently from cancer and has another brother recently diagnosed) As much as I encourage her to take care of herself, I think she just keeps going  

i guess I'm mostly using this forum to talk to others outside my family who might be in a similar situation. I am going to see about counseling as I feel I need to try to get some different perspective and support during this time. Otherwise I'm just an emotional mess if I allow myself to think about things too much! Wondering if there's any books anyone can suggest in the meantime? 

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