Yeap, we terminals can be a little bit tricky.

In my case complaining about what I feel, specially on my bad days, is one way of relieving my stress and anxiety caused by the symptoms.

I mean, the sensation of, and the knowledge that my body is slowly deteriorating for the worst is a mentally stressful, hopeless, frightening feeling. Even in cases where the symptoms are pretty moderate and bearable I just can't help but to think that theres no more hope for me to be healthy again and thats a terrifying feeling as i realize that things will only get worse from there.

Somehow talking about it with other people breaks the association of the symptoms to my body as if it gives the illusion that it is not happening to me or it gives a sense that everything that are happening are "normal" and "natural" and "matter of factly" processes.

When things did became unbearable, I did cry for pain-killers and im the type of person who would rather endure the pain than to bother someone (or take pain killers).

Thanks for your reply. He has just told me the headache has gone after 24 hours and he is hungry. The trouble is he is on pazopanib and has to take it on an empty stomach so he has to stay hungry as he has his pill at night. When he has finished watching football will be ready for bed- although he only sleeps for a few hours.

Here's hoping tomorrow is a better day.Best wishes to you.