Hi Aurelie, 

I am so sorry to hear about your dad. My dad was diagnosed with advanced prostate cancer in July, so I think I can relate to some of what you're feeling. I think this situation is probably just hitting you again. Maybe since you were away and not surrounded by the situation, maybe you almost forgot how tough the situation is. I only say this because I don't live with my parents, but when I go home it sort of hits me that my dad is sick. I think it may be because you are back visiting your parents, so you're surrounded by it more, and there's no way for you to escape what you're feeling or to avoid what your dad is going through. When we don't live with our parents, we don't have to live through it every day, we can almost detach from it in a way. 

So what i'm saying is I think it may take a little while for you to get back to feeling sort of normal. Do you have any friends or people you are able to talk to? It has helped me a lot to talk to people and make myself go out and do things. Then it can take your mind off of everything. I also find it really helpful to live in the moment. If I think about what may happen 5 years from now, I get really depressed. But just try to literally take it one day at a time. Only think about your day today and the time you can spend with your dad today. I hope some fo this advice helps! Feel free to talk anytime!

I also want to say that sometimes we can't go through these things on our own. I see a counselor through my school since I found out about my dad, and it has helped me a little bit. This is a huge life adjustment and something that we both will have to deal with for the rest of our lives. If you do find it hard, we are always here to talk! I've found that a lot of people on this site are very friendly!