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Mimi26
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I don't no how to start really. A year to this month my mum was diagnosed with her 3rd breast cancer diagnosis in 7 years. This time it had come bk with a vengeance and had spread to areas I don't no as she refused alot of the scans. Fast forward a year and she is now entering her final days. Family are flying home and we are being with her as much as we can. 

I'm 26 I have a 6 month old baby and I don't no how to say goodbye I don't no if I can. 

This has been part of our family sinc 2008 and we always get the diagnosis in October it's not are lucky month.

I don't no how ill sit at her bedside and see her slip away. Ino i sound selfish but she's always bounced back and this time I'm watching people fead her and take her the toilet she's such a proud woman ino this isn't what she would allow If she was in her right mind. Confusion has set in and she is in and out of consciousness.

I just feel so afraid and so so so sad for her this isn't fair!!!

No1 should have to see a loved one suffer this way........

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    reading you post made tears in my eyes because I'm going though similar situation I'm 39 I have 9 month old baby boy he my strength at the moment my mother been fighting bowel cancer for two she had chemo but it was making her so I'll we thought we was going to lose her so she stopped treatment this July she went for scan and they found mass didn't know if it was on bowel or ovary she had to have more test done last week she had phone call to see cancer Doctor my mother thought she going to decide what treatment she can have only she was told that it was inoperable they can't do nothing for we all in shock she went Tuesday to see doctor again they told her the cancer in her blood we don't know how long she got what you feeling and going though now I be going through as well its so hard you not selfish you got do what you feel right for you you baby will keep you strong
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    We have been told by the hospice to cherish the next few days. Iv been with her all day and she doesn't know who I am unless she really thinks about it. I'm about to pick my baby boy up from nursery and take him to see her. 

    I'm so exhausted and have no energy in me but I keep a brave face and some sunglasses on just incase. 

    I keep thinking of the future and can't bare the fact that one day this will all be a memory nothing else!! I don't want to fave Christmas and birthdays and all the firsts with my son that could potentially be the firsts without her.

    My son is my rock and without him I would have given up a long time ago. 

    The amount of times we have been given misdiagnosis or false hope is ridiculous and even now I still cling onto the hope I'll wake up and this will all be back to normal.....

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    I can't put into words my heart goes out to you and you family and you baby boy I can't believe this is going to happen to me one day I feel for you all what you going though and feel I understand if you need someone to chat with I'm here for you if I can help in anyway take care speak soon
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    Hi mimi26 just wondering how you doing sending big hugs to u and you baby thinking of you all at this time xx

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    I suspect many of us on here have been through what you are sadly facing Mimi, I too was so wcared when my wifeslipped away in June.

    There are no magic words, just do want your Mum would want and what you want. There is no right or wrong, but I beleive you will be grateful you were there later on..

    I wasn't, as my wife wasn't expected to pass away for another week, and I have so many regrets I missed it by 2 hours.

    This is just my view, but as I said, there are no right ways. You will get the strength when you need it.

    I wish you every luck.

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    HI mimi26 hope you all ok take care . 

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