Hi, my husband has GBM and was diagnosed about 18 months ago. His tumor has recently progressed. We have started started Avastin. I am struggling with his sadness, he is only 46 and not ready to die, he has not really accepted what the doctors are saying is happing inside his head. It is not fair. Im not ready to be without him.  I keep trying to keep him positive but Im wearing, Avastin might work, but he is sort of person who is logical, we are logical, looks at stats, and outcome not good., I am really struggling with what he is feeling. I took him to a support group this week, first time he agreed to go, it was good for him and he talked to others going through what he is, although he was probably in the worst position in regard to progression. I feel bad for feeling sad for me being without him, for what he is going through, but my whole life is changing, he is my life. We tried so much for children when we were younger but I miscarried several times. Some stupid people say, oh its good you dont have children, really, seriously, it is so much worse. Having no children has really hit my husband hard as he has no legacy and life is coming to an end. If I had children i would live for them. When we didnt have children we planned a life of growing old and enjoying each other together by ourselves. Now Im going to be on my own and I am afraid and I feel bad for thinking of myself with what he is going through. I just want to keep my husband, my cant they fix this now, I know thats supid question, there is no answer. I am just so so so so sad.