My mum's getting noticeably sicker, every time I see her things are worse. She has battled for years but now there is no hope of getting better and things seem to be going downhill fast.
She's in so much pain.
To know that she won't be there to see me get married or have any grandchildren hurts so much.
I don't know how to cope. Everyone seems so strong and I have difficulty expressing my emotions so I'm pretty sure people think I'm rather heartless. My heart is hurting a lot though.