Hello Starlight01, 

So sorry to hear about your partners recent diagnosis. It will be an extremely worrying, upsetting and confusing time for you both. I'm not too sure what the hospital have said regarding his bowel cancer and whether it's 'terminal' or if it's 'incurable' but there is a difference between the two. My father was diagnosed exactly a year ago with stage 4 'incurable' bowel cancer with secondaries to his lungs and liver. He started palliative chemotherapy a month later in May and continued with this up until the end of July when he ended up getting a bowel obstruction meaning the tumour in his bowel caused a blockage and was ready to burst and would have killed him. He made it just in time to the hospital where he under went emergency surgery to remove 75% of his bowel including the tumour. However the cancer is described as being like tiny grains of sand that completely covers his lungs and his liver is completely covered too, this makes him 'incurable'. They can't get rid of it, yes he will die eventually from this they've told him that but he could go on and have many years left yet, many do with stage 4 cancer. Has your partner been offered to have any chemotherapy? 

I will be turning 27 next week and it's been the hardest year ever in all my life. Everything around me feels very different and has all of a sudden become so precious. There's a fear inside me now knowing how quickly life can change. I've gone through a mixture of emotions from crying non stop to shouting and being angry to then feeling numb and empty. But somehow we will manage, I've found this incredible hulk like strength in me that I never knew existed and I'm sure you'll find the strength in you too as time goes on. You are far from alone. There is a special dedicated bowel cancer forum that I like to use 'beating bowel cancer.org' this may be of some interest to you as it's specifically for this cancer and can make of an interesting read and everyone is so supportive and friendly on there too. 

Stay strong, big hugs x