hi,
My name is chloe and last year in november, i found out that my nan has terminal cancer. it took me a few days to come to terms with the news because the day i found out this devastating news, was the day i found out my results from a recent mock i did at school. im 15 and my GCSEs are coming quick. Finding out that i was going to lose my nan was one of the hardest moments i have ever had to face so far. I love my nan with every piece of me. We are so close and i value our relationship so much. she supports me and encourages me to try my best and perfrom to my best abilities. Even on her bad days after chemo, she would still send me a text asking if everything at school is going well. Right now, she is my driving force to getting my A's and A*'s in my exams and getting into college.
Ive had a lot of support at home and at shcool, which i am so grateful for. A lot of people say that talking about it helps, but i find that it makes it more real for me... which makes it harder to accept. Recently my moods and emotions have been all over the place and i dont know how to cope with it! I hate being moody and upset at school because i feel like a burden on my friends.
My nan is the stongest lady i know. she has been through more that anyone could understand... and i do and always will respect her for that. What's execptionally hard right now is to see her change so much. She has physically changed so much, she gets extemley tired and she cant hold much of a converstation now/ finds it hard to find the right words to say. My grandad worrys so much aout her and he has really stepped up for her. My mum aswell; She has driven both of them to their doctors, hospital etc. appointments and has made the time to be ther for my sister and myself. its heartbreakig when i see my grandad and mum get upst or cry.
sorry if i dragged on! im finding writting my emotions down, quite useful. the point of this is to ask if anyone has any tips on coping with such news? i need some techniques so that i can cope with this situation and still get those grades to make nan proud of me
